Pressure

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

It's been a week since the second semester started. Seriously baru seminggu? Tapi pasaipa rasa cam lama sangat dah kat sini (well yes, I've been here in IIUM Gombak since 2013) Started to feel the pressure, though this is just the first week. With mostly reading subjects, I don't know whether I'll survive or not. Almost semua subjek nak ada assignments and group projects ni pasaipa? Macam susah pulak tu eeee tak suka. Eleh duk merungut dapat apa? Bazir air liur and sakit kepala. So, stop merungut and start working on them!

I'm kind of homesick actually, because last 2-week semester break has been short but meaningful to me. Lama dah aih tak rasa homesick ni, sekali dia mai pulak. And lately, I'm lack of motivation. I feel like a zombie, fat zombie. Nak balik ... nak nasi ayam bakar (eh tetiba)

Now that I think about it again, do I really want to do accounting? The main reason aku suka accounting sebab dia subjek related to numbers. But looking at this semester's subjects, I'm not sure if I made the right decision. Bila minat takde, paksa lah macam mana pun susah nak buat. I should have choose mathematical science instead. (Thanks to Musfirah, I just found out that IIUM actually offers that course) Of course I love accounting, cuma tak berapa minat subjek-subjek semester ni je. Why do I need to learn economics seriously why, I'm bad at critical thinking and assumptions and all economics-related things.

Oh teringat ustaz Zaharuddin cakap hari tu, as student yuyaiyey ni kalau kita belajar economics contohnya, kita bukan sekadar belajar economics, kita dapat belajar jugak dari perspektif Islam. Bukan sekadar belajar conventional economics, tapi belajar jugak fiqh for economist. Bonus! Hmm kira minor in IRK la ni hiks cuma tak tertulis kat sijil. Okay ustaz, saya tak kisah belajar agama tapi kenapa mesti economics ...

Just in case I'm no longer in IIUM Gombak next semester, you know where to find me.

(Well of course this is nothing, biasalah cuak nak hadap sem ni dengan macam-macam benda baru, kena meroyan dulu. Like I said before, problem kecik je, tuan badan je yang overacting. I'll be fine in shaa Allah.)