Hal Kecik, Bro

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

Puncak Titiwangsa, 2015

I watched the movie Dear Dumb Diary (kalau dah takde cerita best kat TV, cerita kanak-kanak pun kau layan). It’s about a girl named Jamie and her school life. There’s a part when she lost her diary and the kids at the school found it, she felt like that’s the end of her life. Of course la bro, orang baca diari kau yang penuh dengan angan-angan pasal jantan yang kau suka, malu laa. But then she convinced herself through a song (yes this movie is some sort of musical movie actually), saying that once she grew up, that things do not matter anymore.

Zaman sekolah rendah, bebudak laki kasi aku macam-macam gelaran. I cried a lot because I felt like I was being humiliated. Tapi now dah besar panjang, teringat balik zaman muda-muda tu, rasa macam lawak sangat. Padahal problem kecik je, but at that time I even thought of switching to other school okay haha memain kauuu. Biasalah bebudak nak bergurau kan (cis kuasam asal aku jadi mangsa gurauan hangpa)

And high school woo hok ni lagi banyok masaloh. Study entah ke mana, gaduh dengan kawan sana sini, panas baran tak tentu hala. And I even thought of running away from home. Now that I look at it again, it was actually nothing. It’s just me going through the so-called-‘alam remaja’. Hormon tak stabil tu takyah cakap lah. Eh memang typical remaja suka memberontak ke macam mana?

Let’s look at the wider scope.

Kekadang bila kita ada masalah, we feel like “mampuih la aku...” Oookay maybe I’m the only one who feels like that haha kekadang bro, kekadang. Tapi kalau kita tak bertindak sendiri, sampai bila-bila takkan selesai problem tu. You’ll find the solution soon or maybe the problem will eventually fade away by itself. Running away should never be the option. And certain problem tu bukanlah besar mana pun, kekadang kecik je tapi kita ni over sangat. Kita ada Allah, minta pertolongan Dia in shaa Allah jumpa jalan penyelesaian.

Well now I think I’m over that phase, the ‘alam remaja’ phase haha. I guess I’m more mature than before. Every problem has its solution. Takyah la buang masa pikir benda yang remeh-temeh, duniawi je semua ni, get your focus straight on things that should be focused on. Hmm it’s just now I’m kinda having problem dealing with my heart, susah sangat nak bersangka baik. Maybe hati kotor sangat kot hmm ...